Wow, this made me laugh A LOT, mainly because I was physically abused by my mother as a child, she used me to raise her daughter 'my sister' (who was my best friend, I dropped out of University and stayed home to help her deal with her depression while my mom was knocked out on alcohol and sleeping medication) and now they are the best of friends and I'm out in what they think is the cold. I'm making peace with the fact that family is not family unless the love is unconditional, and unconditional love can only be given by those who understand and embrace you. I never received that from the people I share a surname with, and now that I've finally grown a voice I'm the problem, because I don't make myself small anymore to accommodate their lack persona and identity I'm the problem. They have not only tried to take my happiness, they want to block my talents and God given gifts through witchcraft, they compete with me even when the only thing I choose to do is project love. I realised they too were broken, I tried to fix them but that's not my job. I can't imagine a parent being jealous of their daughter, cause how can? But still here we are. I've forgiven regardless, there is no way I will live with a heavy heart when all I do is spread love. I'm finally owning my truth, forgiving myself and chasing my childhood dreams.
God forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing🤍
Thank you so much for reading and commenting and I'm sorry you went through all of that as a child and growing up. I think sometimes people, especially family members can see the light in someone else and if they're not being what they should be (a good mum for example), I believe the light irritates them and gets them all triggered. They'd rather us be like them as that would be a lot easier. When we're not they seem unable to meet us at our level and then we end up becoming the "troubled one" the "black sheep" the "odd one out" the "weirdo." All because we're not conforming to fit into their dark world.
Absolutely an incredible share, thank you so much for putting this out into the world.
I bet it has also been very therapeutic for you and lifted a weight off your chest. It takes great courage to do something like this and I admire you for that.
It really does seem like family cared a lot more about most of us when we were, young, innocent, and could never be perceived as a threat to their success or inner demons.
But as we get older, form our own opinions, and start to pave roads in our life that they never could, It really brings out the true culture of people
I've seen this in a lot of families including my own.
The ones we trust from such a young age, can suddenly turn on us emotionally, igniting jealousy and envy. It's usually a completely surprise and shocks our system.
I just want you to know that you're not alone, you've taken a HUGE step here that most would never consider. And Substack is the best place to get that high energy support.
Oh hun, I don’t have the words for this, but what I will say although my trauma is not the same, after 6 years and 2 breakdowns because of how another person treated me, I learned too forgive, never forget though, but it did set free a little part of me that got broken by someone I thought was a good friend, u r an amazing warrior, don’t ever change xx
It's hard though isn't it. Well I find it hard but I'm almost there. Thanks Emma you're a lovely person so the friend you thought you had wasn't worth having. 🩷 xx
Forgiveness is letting go of the burden on you in mind,body and spirit and you release it to God in Heaven. It does not mean they are right. It helps you let go of the event and the pain. God takes care of the rest so you are free of it and move on. It is a healing beyond understanding. Holding on to it all only causes pain,illness, etc. Give it to God in Heaven Who sees everything and knows everything. 💖
It's a hard thing to do. I'm thinking if I just keep saying it enough in my mind it'll magically work! Probably the best I can do is to not feel anything at all about any of them. I'm almost there. Xx
I know it is possible to forgive, because I have done it. I have no anger; no jydgement; no pain. I have learnt, grown healed, transformed. I have NOT forgotten. I am totally fine talking about what happened to me (10 years of extreme emotional and physical abuse) and am not triggered by this stuff snymore.
It took a long time (50 years!), and much work. But, for me it was definitely worth it.
Thanks for reading and commenting Viv. I appreciate it.
It is hard, very hard but I'll keep practicing this act of forgiveness because ultimately it is for my own benefit. I think the word forgive has been tied in with that other word "forget" and I think that's partly where my issue lies. I can never forget.
Wow, this made me laugh A LOT, mainly because I was physically abused by my mother as a child, she used me to raise her daughter 'my sister' (who was my best friend, I dropped out of University and stayed home to help her deal with her depression while my mom was knocked out on alcohol and sleeping medication) and now they are the best of friends and I'm out in what they think is the cold. I'm making peace with the fact that family is not family unless the love is unconditional, and unconditional love can only be given by those who understand and embrace you. I never received that from the people I share a surname with, and now that I've finally grown a voice I'm the problem, because I don't make myself small anymore to accommodate their lack persona and identity I'm the problem. They have not only tried to take my happiness, they want to block my talents and God given gifts through witchcraft, they compete with me even when the only thing I choose to do is project love. I realised they too were broken, I tried to fix them but that's not my job. I can't imagine a parent being jealous of their daughter, cause how can? But still here we are. I've forgiven regardless, there is no way I will live with a heavy heart when all I do is spread love. I'm finally owning my truth, forgiving myself and chasing my childhood dreams.
God forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing🤍
Thank you so much for reading and commenting and I'm sorry you went through all of that as a child and growing up. I think sometimes people, especially family members can see the light in someone else and if they're not being what they should be (a good mum for example), I believe the light irritates them and gets them all triggered. They'd rather us be like them as that would be a lot easier. When we're not they seem unable to meet us at our level and then we end up becoming the "troubled one" the "black sheep" the "odd one out" the "weirdo." All because we're not conforming to fit into their dark world.
Absolutely an incredible share, thank you so much for putting this out into the world.
I bet it has also been very therapeutic for you and lifted a weight off your chest. It takes great courage to do something like this and I admire you for that.
It really does seem like family cared a lot more about most of us when we were, young, innocent, and could never be perceived as a threat to their success or inner demons.
But as we get older, form our own opinions, and start to pave roads in our life that they never could, It really brings out the true culture of people
I've seen this in a lot of families including my own.
The ones we trust from such a young age, can suddenly turn on us emotionally, igniting jealousy and envy. It's usually a completely surprise and shocks our system.
I just want you to know that you're not alone, you've taken a HUGE step here that most would never consider. And Substack is the best place to get that high energy support.
Sending love to you as you continue your journey.
Thank you so much for reading and taking the time to comment. I appreciate it.
Yes it was quite therapeutic getting it all out of my head and down on paper, so to speak!
I definitely wasn't expecting to gey much feedback from it, that's for sure!
Oh hun, I don’t have the words for this, but what I will say although my trauma is not the same, after 6 years and 2 breakdowns because of how another person treated me, I learned too forgive, never forget though, but it did set free a little part of me that got broken by someone I thought was a good friend, u r an amazing warrior, don’t ever change xx
It's hard though isn't it. Well I find it hard but I'm almost there. Thanks Emma you're a lovely person so the friend you thought you had wasn't worth having. 🩷 xx
Forgiveness is letting go of the burden on you in mind,body and spirit and you release it to God in Heaven. It does not mean they are right. It helps you let go of the event and the pain. God takes care of the rest so you are free of it and move on. It is a healing beyond understanding. Holding on to it all only causes pain,illness, etc. Give it to God in Heaven Who sees everything and knows everything. 💖
Thank you for reading and for commenting. I appreciate it 🩷✨️
Let it all out hey? Xx
I wonder if anyone really forgives or if it’s just something people say?
The best we can hope for sometimes is for them to fade in our memories xx
It's a hard thing to do. I'm thinking if I just keep saying it enough in my mind it'll magically work! Probably the best I can do is to not feel anything at all about any of them. I'm almost there. Xx
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I know it is possible to forgive, because I have done it. I have no anger; no jydgement; no pain. I have learnt, grown healed, transformed. I have NOT forgotten. I am totally fine talking about what happened to me (10 years of extreme emotional and physical abuse) and am not triggered by this stuff snymore.
It took a long time (50 years!), and much work. But, for me it was definitely worth it.
I wish you fair winds.
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Thanks for reading and commenting Viv. I appreciate it.
It is hard, very hard but I'll keep practicing this act of forgiveness because ultimately it is for my own benefit. I think the word forgive has been tied in with that other word "forget" and I think that's partly where my issue lies. I can never forget.
Thanks Viv ♥️